xiao` mumu

YOU LIE TO ME..

2010-04-09T04:19:00.000-07:00

YERRRRRR!

WHY you do this to me..

WHY WHY WHY ?!?!

this time i ain't gonna forgive you..

NEVER..

that's it..

its over..

im sory ..

directed again..?

2010-04-08T07:50:00.000-07:00

directed again..?

hope..

.i hope that you were with me..

be by my side..

..6months liao..

soon...

its gonna be 7 months..

how long shud i wait more..

..i don;t know...

sometimes ..

i wan to sms with you also i cant..

you wont reply me..

...things get really complicated sometime..

theres no1 to cheer me up..

and i get very moody sometimes..

but today..

april 08..

sum1 did..

...

that person..

has been asking me to forgive

for a very long time ..

till now..

ok ba..

hope that person is trustable.

nowdays..

cant even sleep..

kept on thinking of that thing...

stress lerhh..

school got problem...

personal got problem...

family got problem..

time to study also cant...

... :( even im having my own problem with some of my frens..

i expect a CHANGE...

PLEASE...

Xiao mumu..` `

world isn't life last time..agree?

OH NO .NOT AGAIN -.-

2010-04-05T07:10:00.001-07:00

[ are you directed from my 2nd blog? :O ]

if u are.. welcome to my 1st blog..:)

1st ,

i would like to say sorry to everyone..

hais ..

im really sory..

for what i've done to u all...

SORRIIIIEE!!

and for him...

i don't want you in my life anymore..

please. dun keep on sms/calling me ..

and she..

im sory to disturb you..

..i really wished that..

that..

...sigh..

forget about it..

its imposibble anyway..

today , morning..

same routine again..

morning morning..

go buy mee siam + pok pok + taukie

eat eat eat..

reach schhooolll...

go there..

1st subject BM oredi..

din do homework..

forget le -.- kena marah..

till very ad..

sigh..

*skips to evening tuition*

evening..

mdm.teng..

eat fishball mee..

not enough..

wanted to buy more..

but , no enough money..

sigh..

went upstairs..

do homework..

till hand wan breeakkkk...

den,,

teacher came in..

study study study ..

do karangan..

do until i m the last 1 to finish..

lol....

all ppl do so fast..

i do 1page = 1 paragraph lerhh!

summore my handwriting so small...

-.-'' frens all nvr wait for me de :O

hais ..

sad sad sad ...

*tonight tuition [ad.maths] *

i didn't do the homework again..

-.-'' everytime also din do.

why ? ? ? ? ?

because i cant !!

...i really cant..

those things..

are really disturbing..

am i suffering from emotional disturbance...?

sigh..

+ today ad.maths tuition..

dont even know what the teacher teaching...

quadratic function = GG.com -.-''

now at home le...

heard a bad news..

seriously bad..

that now only i know..

heart keep on feeling down..

* `mumu ______abnormal me.. ;O

T^T

2010-04-03T09:35:00.000-07:00

4time..

HEARTBROKEN !

full of dissapointment..

hais..

sad lerhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i cant forget it ..

the thing is in my mind all the time..

:( wish some frens were here to cheer me up.. :(

Time Passes as i HURT MORE everyday...

2010-03-28T08:05:00.001-07:00

me ,

muruga .

i've been waiting for someone ..

for almost 6months ..

6months..

guys ..

who ever read this blog..

you all may think that i m a playful boy..

but seriously.. im not playful in love..

i don;t know why..

i just don;t understand .

its just unfair..

6months le ..

every single day..

not even 1 day i miss..

to cry..

to hurt..

to scream..

to miss..

you..

i wanted to give up..

but i cant ..

my feelings towards u..

its really too much..

..6months .. i trusted that true love, needs great sacrifice..

i sacrifice many of my time..

for u..

and i wanted you to be always be happy..

i know..

readers , u all think me now is very lame de .

its ok . think la wat u wan think abt me . i dun care..

i always wanted her to be happy ..

not to be sad or hurt.

but .

she said . she hates me ..

and , im making her life..

really really really miserable..

means : im disturbing her ..

means : im making her sad ..

means : im really DUMB..

and you guys know why i decided to suicide..?

its about two things .

one is my feelings towards my dad( which is now ok already =] , love you daddy ^^)

and another one ..

my feelings towards you..

5th month..

i really cant take it ..

its been hurting me ..

really really very much..

and

could say that i skipped my breakfast , lunch , dinner for 2 daYS..

yea.. 2 daYs nvr eat anything ..

and my mum really was worried..

she scolded me . really badly .

saying me mad and all those stuffs.

i wasn't listenning .. cz i cant even understand wat was she talking ..

all i had in my heart was YOU...

YOU were the only light in my heart..

but .. i know.. for YOU , im the only darkness in YOUr heart..

and i decided to end my life .

( call me stupid if u wan to )

i really cant take it anymore..

those 5months full of torture..

my heart isn't a TOY you know..?

i felt that no1 cared about me ..

i felt that no1 wans me anymore..

my mum : was like lost hope on me ..

my frens : only Rhinevir were by my side . giving support to me .

5months...

and that perfect timing

i failed the 2nd attempt for my suicidal..

..something stopped me . i don't know what it was..

but hey..

when im out from me home ,

i kept thinking of YOU..

yes...

ONLY YOU..

i was hungry but the hunger went away when YOU were in my mind..

wonder wats my 1st attempt ?

- goes lik dis .

mum went buy breakfast .

cars passingby many many on road .

lol .

sumting came into my mind ,

opened the car door ,

ran towards the middle of the road .

a car almost bang me

but didn;t .

>< ''

..i'd do anything for YOU..

anything ..

BUT..please dun ask me to leave YOU..

..i cant..even..

let..

go.. of u..in my mind..

for atleast 18seconds(tested and proven O.o'')..

sigh .

6th month..

im still waiting ..

hoping u to b with me .. :(

im sory if i ever made you sad..

im really sory if i made you angry..

please forgive me . i beg you..

.. please.. its really deep..

for me ..

even a small mistake..

i cant take it ..

... im sory ..

I L O V E Y O U ` :/

xiao` mumu~

U P D A T E S .

2010-03-27T00:00:00.001-07:00

heartbroken .
6pm will update blog .

xiao|mumu

IM ADDICTED TO YOu.......

2010-03-26T03:27:00.000-07:00

How long will I be waiting?

Until the end of time..

I don't know why I'm still waiting..

I can't make you mine..

everything seems...far..

2010-03-23T09:25:00.001-07:00

everything seems far for me now..
hais..
very very far...
=[
afew days more...
will b 6months le..
.. :( im really speechless...
wat should i do..
.. sigh...
+ my frens all also left me oredi...
left me alone here...
hais ..

wish there were you by my side..
but..wher are you..

mumu '
y cant i gv up... i cant ... :(

2nd attempt FAIL -.-

2010-03-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

..sigh..

why dis always happen to me .

i really dun like it ..

last night.

cried non-stop..

..and i started to give up everything.

and decided to suicide the next day..

today morning .

sunday morning .

i woke up .

went to tuition..

then ,

when the tuition is over ,

my FCKIN' dad bring me to the barber .

cut my hair until like monkey .

VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SHORT .

this .

makes me feel like wan to suicide more .

see , im not used to having A VERY SHORT HAIR..

very sia sueh leh .

n hated my dad very much .

long time ago oredi .

he did many things ..

which is REALLY UNFAIR TO ME ..

all those things my brother and my sister gets .

i don't .

WHY !?

i also dun care la . u do me this .

i also dun wan study .

no doubt y my exam results are like shit .

BECAUSE I PURPOSELY DO IT .

BECAUSE I HATE YOU FATHER

YOU SUCK ALOT THAN ANYBODY ELSE

REALLY ALOT . I HATE YOU

i may forgive everyone .

but i will never EVER forgive him

i dun care , he is my dad or wat .

i dun give shits about it .

wher was i ...

oh ya.

he asked that ''ke ling kia'' to cut my hair dam dam dam short .

then ,

i very du lan .

then ,

he bring me to crystal inn restaurant ther .

the waiter gave the menu .

i dun care le .

ignoring wat my dad / mum / others say wat to me .

den ,

he told me . not to be such an idiot to him .

i said . ur an idiot .

then , he slaps me but MISSED ME .

OLD MAN , U've LOST UR ACCURACY .

-.-

i said i wan run

then ,

he also say " ok , u wan run , go la . but dun come back"

OK! I WILL NEVER COME BACK .

i started walking everywhere..

weather very hot le .

decided to sit down at The Store(old de , beside CrystalInn)

but .

i saw a mad old man .

walking towards me .

lol . scared LOL -.- so i ran .

went to SMK TINGGI BATU PAHAT (my school)..

very far le ..

leg pain..

the gate was closed .

sigh .

then ,

decided to stop at stadium.

sit there...

do nth ..

began to miss my mum..

i only love my mum..

MY DAD. HUMPH . NO NID TALK ABOUT HIM

i took a stone .

carved at the wall..

" MOM, IM SORY. I LOVE YOU -muruga-"

sigh .

then ,

suddenly came up to my mind .

i wan to suicide.

so i decided to walk the WIRACOURT .

and jump down frm the top. -.-

lame isn't it ? i had no choice..

i don't know how to survive anymore.

i dont know how to find work.

..and im seriously not FRENLY..-.-

was walking ...

n walking

till i reached TheStore there again .

OH SHIT .

WAS THAT MY MUM ?!.. +.+''

walao..

she saw me , ran..crying to me -.-

ask me dun go ..

piangs . i also run lo -.-

den i stop..

hearing my mum calling my name..makes me ..

as a child .

i love my mum ..

lol.

hugs n tears =.=''

heard that my dad was crying also WAHAHAH! .

I JUST MELTED A STONE WITH A SINGLE ACTION O.o''

hehes :D

its not over yet..

i did this...

all of this..

its cause of sum1..

..hais ..

` xiaomumu_______"

LARHS " +~

how long more..

2010-03-10T03:04:00.000-08:00

u really have no idea..

how long i've been waiting for u..

sigh..

wish u could talk with u..

wish u could be with u..

but..

worried that if i did...

u would hate me ..

i really don't know what to do..

i dun wan u to hate me ..

:( 5 months ..

nvm ba..

i'll wait..

this my decision...

hope i make the right one..

today ,

exam..

ad. maths ,

cham lo.. ><''

got 15 questions..

i oni do 4/5 nia..

aiyohss :(

this time my ad.maths sure FAIL...

my Physics also sure FAIL ><''

my bio okok la :P
my Sejarah - OMG . | GG.com -.-''

sure tio scold till very gao gao -.-

boom T^T

play play with the hair dryer O.o''

nth to do le..

den. suddenly .

got idea ,

go dry up my hair ,

den ,

use HAIRTEC duno watwat le~

den , use dryer again .

woaalaaa~ my hair looks like...

LOL..................................................

XDDDD miracle-ly...theres a difference ^^

look soooooo...... B A K A ` ! xDD

` xiao | mumu ____`

i love you ..

sigh...`

2010-03-07T00:23:00.000-08:00

i don't know what should i do now..

if i talk with her..

that person will hate me more..

tat person already hate me very much..

sigh..

wish this could change..

i wish that person..

chg...

n my life chg...

=( very hurt le ..

i dun mean to make u sad..

..5 months le ..

i cant let it go..

its just .. too hard..

xiao ` mumu ________`

i cant change..

TS ` 4eva n owayz |

2010-03-06T03:00:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened, please tell me
Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're half way out the door

And I stare at the phone
He still hasn't called
And then you feel so low
You can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to
When he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here
And it rains when you're gone
I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest?
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew for a minute now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone
He still hasn't called
And then you feel so low
You can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to
When he said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here
And it rains when you're gone
I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it baby
I don't think so, oh oh oh
Back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?

Back up, baby back up
Please back up, oh back up
Back up, baby back up

Cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here
And it rains when you're gone
I was there when you said forever and always

And I stare at the phone
He still hasn't called
And then you feel so low
You can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to
When we said forever and always
Cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here
And it rains when you're gone
I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it baby
You said forever and always, yeah

S I G H * .

2010-03-03T21:47:00.000-08:00

y u abit abit like this ,

i cant understand you..

if u angry with me

jz tell me mar...

hais ..

or mayb u jealous cz im with that person..

ok lo. tell me . atleast, i noe why ur behaving lik dis..

but.. u din even tell me anything..

say bye bye to u ,

wat u response ?

'' jibai la , fcker '' WTF la?

pek cek playin' smal kiddo games with you.

im not like last time now ,

if u saw this post ,

tell me why u behavin lik dat ( n stop saying vurglars [ u hvn noe how when im angry, i very long time nvr show my anger to ppl, ur consider lucky ] )

x i a o ` mumu

_________________-.-''

sigh* __ ` emo-ing all the way@

2010-03-02T09:17:00.001-08:00

emo-ing all the way .+

` some of my frens bu shuang with me ,

cz kip on emo-in'. .. sigh , im sory guys ,

sumting made me be lik dis , n its hard...

really hard , `

everytime @ i wanna __cry '

i can ' t . dun even K N O W why . '

those words .

S I G H ` .

i dOnt wan Na say it anymor' /

dun wan her to H A T E me .

I T S U C K S W H E N U L O V E S U M O N E ,

T H A T P E R S O N T O T A L L Y H A T E S Y O U '

X I A O ' mumu

E L A P S E | T I M E B Y | ...emo-ing..?

2010-02-28T06:57:00.001-08:00

its hard..

stil cant get over it ..

wat that person said ..

hais..

really hurt me deep..

but i dun hv any hard feeelings towards tat person..

sigh..

_________ITS TOOO ___

___HARD_________

_________TO UNDERSTAND____

__THE____

___________REAL____

__ME..

xiao ` mumu +++++!

sigh~

ARGH!

2010-02-28T00:11:00.000-08:00

time to change..

ignore everything ..

IDC!

I DUN CARE!

wishes...

xiao ` mumu ___

sigh~

idk idk idk

2010-02-25T18:28:00.001-08:00

idk idk idk ..

wat should i do now...

its not easy...

...

sigh...

love needs sacrifice...?

me already sacrifice many things...

almost.. all...

y i din get anything...

...

i cant do anything...

u hate me that much...

n.. i.. forgot how to move on...

..it hurts me alot when u said that...

destroyed n damaged reputation...

sigh.. not even a single percent...

muruga'

speechless *

...

2010-02-25T07:37:00.000-08:00

if that makes you happy...

then... its ok...

just let me be hurt... everyday..

its my daily routine rite...

its ok de...

`muruga | make it red so that i could die easier..

why don't you kill me...

when...why...n how...

2010-02-25T06:31:00.000-08:00

when...

when can i say that to u...

when can i be with you...

when can i be happy...

when can i stop hurting...

when is the time..?

why...

why am i like this...

why am i keep on thinking of that person...

why am i ignoring other ppl...

why am i behaving like this...

how...

how should i get you....

how....

why....

when.....

its been so long....

i know i should be patient...

but.. its already 4months... afew days more..

will b 5 months ...

its ok...

everything is okay...

'now i realised how much i need you in my heart...

feel so....left out... =(

don't know why this makes me feel... so.. pushed away....

' xiao ` mumu________

i'll be waiting for you..

Forever and Always - Taylor Swift

2010-02-24T06:28:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye
We caught onto something, I hold on to the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding? 'Cause it seems to me

This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone; he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said, forever and always
Oh, oh

And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure

So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone; he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, oh

And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it, baby, I don't think so
Oh, oh

Oh, back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything?
Back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything?

'Cause it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

And I stare at the phone he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always!~

And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it, baby, you said forever and always,
Yeah

TORTURE!

2010-02-19T03:53:00.001-08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaarGHHH!H

cant stop thinking of THAT.

WtH...

i really cant liao la .. =(

why euu lik dis..'

xiao ` mumu ________~*

love love ..

YOU HURT ME FROM INSIDE..

2010-02-18T09:55:00.001-08:00

....

suffered much alrdy..

i really cant take it la..

=( its really hurting me ..

WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND ME ?

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...

...but..why.. =( .. i never expected u to say lik that...

..its not true right..?..

PLEASE.. tell me..

thats not true..

please...

everytime u ignore me..

..y this happens to me.. =( UNFAIR! T^T ..

xiao ` mumu ______________+~*

ITS REALLLLLY COMPLICATED..

WHY ME !

2010-02-16T19:40:00.000-08:00

cant take it anymore..

bt , i'll still keep it as a secret ..

~ she so charming ,

~ shes a gud person

~ she very nice to talk to,

~ she so kind,

~ so cute,

~ lovable heart,

~ shes so sweet

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

x33 HER! i'll wait ..

xiao mumu~________~~

x3XXX XXXXXXX o.o''

EU DONNT NEEED ME..

2010-02-14T08:20:00.001-08:00

YOU, dont need me.

You, dont need me.

YOu, dont need me.

~ You, stole everything frm my heart..

~ You , stole my love..

~ You, never return it back..

WHY?

WHY MUST YOU DO THAT TO ME ? ?

TELL ME WHY...

You Suck..

Steal my Everything..

I Dont Need You..

Who Cares..

You Are NoOne to Me..

Gud Bye..

xiao ` mumu __________________ ''

i x3 *** ******* ! but i duno that person thinks wat abt me.. =x

2000th reader :D

2010-02-06T19:31:00.000-08:00

once u read my blog,

if u r the 2000th reader,

u can get sumting nice :D

thanks for reading my bloggie :D

add me msn : muruga10@hotmail.com

`~xiao mumu_________

WHAT THE FUCK IS LOVE ?

LOL! funny..

2010-02-06T19:26:00.000-08:00

lols..

tdy..juz now

at mdm.ong, chemistry tuition..

when going back..

im waiting for yong ah chiu to come ..

hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahha...

damn fckin thirsty.. -.-''

went to shop, bookstore..

buy 7UP..

lol..

sooooo gassy..

o.o''

den..

got an old women come ..

WTF malay! D:

she asked '' yang~ wak nak tin ini tak?''pointing at my 7UP D:

i said '' saya baru je beli, belum minum habim pun :x ''

lol..

den she start to make me sad D: WTF!

she said,

her husband died..

left 4 childrens

and all of them were sent to anak yatim de house..

i mean.. WHO CARES.. u telling me this stories for wad.. ==

lol..

felt kasihan(poor thing laa...)

lol.. gave her my 7UP...

LOL!!

after that,

she ask for money

WTF!!

1st ask for 50cent...

i said i no money,

den she beg me

i said i really no money..

REALLY LA...-.-''

used all my money on that 7UP..

LOL..

``xiiao mumu_________

saved a life :D

..

2010-02-02T07:05:00.000-08:00

ah di..

..u never cared abt me..

u will never noe.. hw much i cared for u..

hais..

TO all readers..

i dun care u all think me is LEBIH or wat..

this my blog..

i write what i think..

i dun care..

..deric didi..

please come back..

kor kor missh u le..

i wan my baby back..

i wan my didi back le..

im sory if i did anything wrong..

i wont do those things that u dun like de le..

please.. come back home..

suffering

crying

tears...rollin' down my cheeks..

everyday..

every single second im thinking of u..

not to say that im gay..

i really cared abt u..

very sayang u de leh..

..u do lik dis..

now u blame everything on me..

its ok..

u said that u wanna have a new start..

u said it urself that day..

now..

wat happen..?

deric..

return home pls..

~______________xiao mumu` IM HURT!

either u dun wan me or wat.. i stil be there for u.. deric..

..i made a mistake i noe..

2010-01-30T08:00:00.000-08:00

i noe..

i made a mistake..

i shared to most of my frens..

they ask me to forget abt him..

but i simply cant..

.. i really cared for that person..

really really cared for him..

n i really cant understand..

why he wans to do like this to me..

i duno why..

wat happen deric..

i really cant take it anymore..

the way u treat me..

the way u talk to me..

u didn't even wanna talk to me..

u din even wanna see me..

...all the time..avoiding me..

and..

if u think im LEBIH..

go ahead..

u wil never noe..

how much i really cared abt u ..

u think i play play sacrifice all my time being with u las time ?

u think i play play sacrifice all my time thinking of u las time ?

without studying ?

LOL..

its ok le..

you were too complex thats all..

i jz cant understand u..

didi..

i miss u..

i miss the way u called me KOR..

i miss the way u smile at me..

i wan my didi back!

i wan my DERIC back! ..

come back to me..

im sorry if i made u angry..

im sory if i made u sad..

im really sory..

i jz cant do anything without u ..

i really need u that much..

`xiao mumu..

x33 no1.. IM REALLLLLLYY COMPLICATED !

..wat the hell..?

2010-01-29T06:29:00.000-08:00

i duno wat happen...

i went canteen tdy..

just to meet him...

n i went there...

he chase me away...

..den..i folow him to vendin' machine ther..

n saw him talking to him fren..

i told him to go tugas..

n wad he said..?

go die.. LOL..

i ignored him...

n a few minutes ago..

after i bck frm tuition..

i online..

n he was online too..

he started scolding me vurglars..

i wan my old deric back..

i hate my new deric.. =(

xiao`m u m u ____________ iTS REALLLLLLY complicated..

x33 none..

OucH! =(

2010-01-23T08:47:00.000-08:00

very very sad n lonely without her..

hais..

Thursday

morning morning...

when brush teeth..

when brush brush...

suddenly hand slipped n the brush kena my gummy

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

wth...

so pain...

T^T...

bleeding le...

oucH oucH!

duno wat to do..

i use towel n hold it ther..

aiyo...

so pain..

my teeth so white bcm red 0.0''

LOL...

go to school...

mum start to nag..

say me oways play computer..

== den..

tat time..

i lost my tie..

den.. she nag nag..

say me lost my tie very silly..

keep on repeating the same thing

><''

at school...

morning morning...

when i was copying the citra bahasa

pengawas came in my class..

n asked for sukan de money zzzzzzzzzzz

he said urgent..n all i got is only rm3 ==

n i need to pay is : rm3

WTFF??!?!?!!?

i said later i pay

he dun wan

i said later when got money i pay

he said urgent

FUCK!

i dulan...

i shouted at him

he get scared n ran away =x

LOL..

all ppl stare at me ><>

these days too stress laaa...

i never like dis b4 de leh.. =(

recess time..

deric din care abt me ..

i very sad...

hais..

when i see him..he pretend to look at other place...

duno wat happened to him..

i wan my old deric back!!

i dun wan n i dun like my NEW deric!

T^T...

den..

sarjit saw me not wearing tie...

he called me

n asked me

den

he hit my with his ONE AND ONLY CANE...

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

these time

duno wat happen to me

suddenly i fire at him back..

when he said

''pusing belakang.. ini denda awak''

i shouted ''WAT THE FUCK?''

he said.. ''apa lu cakap ? ''

i replied '' oi.. saya tie hilang la.. nanti esok gua pergi beli la''

den he said '' tak tak.. tadi apa wak cakap dengan saya?''

i replied '' sekarang , kau kacau saya, saya ada kelas nak pergi.. datang sekolah unntuk belajar.. bukan nak pakai tie , nak sebat orang punya bontot ke apa''

And i walked away..

he Shouted at me .. asking me to come back..

den i shout at him back ' apa lu ? har? ko ingat ini bapak kau punya sekolah eh? pergi mampus la''

LOL! i duno wat happen to MEEEE!?!?!?!

wth.....

-.-''

lucky he din take any action for that..

mayb he din hear that...

or ...

mayb...

he heard that..

n MONDAY i die..

OMG OMG OMG

evening le..

school end le..

i go tasek y .. meet joey..

i go ther..

forget take my money at my class...

so..i din eat =x...

went there..

sit at the chair near swing ther..

wait for 30minutes..

my stomach growling liao ==

aiyo...

wher is this gurll

den 3.30 le..

i go back school...

saw that saa jii(sarjit) again..

he said , kenapa lambat? kau ingat ini bapak kau punya sekolah eh?

wth... kp la.. i din say anything.. =x

LOL

this is the worst day in my life.. -.-

reggie angry towards me liao

wth...

i was there ok ?

its not only u who is angry..

i also angry..

but i din say it out..

i din show my anger

zz...

dun understand y nowdays ppl all lik dis...

abit abit jiu angry liao

LIKE ME NOW ==

mayb they stress :D

lol..

0.0''

haiya..

sad sad everyday..

y ppl dun wan understand me ..

hais..

feel like giving up everything..

never felt like this before le..

im sory to all ppl..

who i treat badly this lately...

sory sory sory x1000 ..

SORY...

xiao` mumu

x3shigemori...KAY!

NEW LIFE...?

2010-01-13T00:08:00.001-08:00

kay kay kay oh dear kay ..

=D ^^

50th POST -

2010-01-04T23:20:00.000-08:00

this is the 50th post on my blog..

n jz a few minutes ago..

i did the most stupid-est things in my life..

winnie__
i DONT understand you..

why YOU like this..

u said u loved me truely..

12DEC2009 01:21 - Me winnie tan wan lin promise you i wont leave you if i do i hit by car and lighting shock me

10DEC2009 0.:09 - Bye.. Baby..your my only one in my heart.. In love and in dream there are no impossible.. Love you with all my heart and soul..till when that day i die i wil still love you in heaven..(gt more bt its abt her ex n if her ex sees this.. i'll b the troublemaker)

this are those msges u sent to me...

YOU PROMISED me..

n now..

when i ask you..

do u love me?..

wat did u response?

''.....''???

wats ''....''??

its ok.. i understand..

xiao`mumu

winnie, why..

WHY?

2010-01-04T07:47:00.000-08:00

1st day school..

went to school with a heart broken feeling...

hais.. bt ther.. was happy abit oni..

all ppl started to ignore me.. most of my gud frens..

..its ok..

[ miss her leh! ]

-EVENING-

lol..went eat laksa with fren..

0.0'' eric tan <--- he mr.chili... ate up all the chili

lol.. den.. walk to madam Teng 0.0''

ah ben's mother is a Joker!

wahahaa! LOL.. i wan sit with my gugu..

that pai kia steal my gugu place.. GRR. = =

sad sad... wish can sit with my gugu when other class de time..

i dun wan sit with that pai kia lehh! oways texting when the teacher teach 1...

hai wo tio scold LOL 0.0''

[ miss her leh! ]

-NIGHT-

do mdm.teng de hmwk (i guai hor)

do till finish..

lol..

den..

i nth to do liao..-.-''

i wan study bt duno wat to study..

ad.maths so confusing.. dun even understand a thing 0.0''

[ miss her leh! ]

-NIGHT [9-12am]-

missing her..

i...dont even know she really love me or not..

its ok...

[ IMMA MAN ]

n I DONT BREAK MY PROMISES...

once i make them.. i nver chg them..

n its my FAULT to make 1 for her..

bt nvm...i stil love her..

BUT i don't know what is she thinking abt me...

HAIS....i'll wait for her..

- TELL ME WHY IS IT SOO COMPLICATED ? -

xiao`mumu

love winnie..

question mark...?

2010-01-01T05:04:00.000-08:00

u made me really hurt that day...

u said i hurt you..

n i try my best to get u back..

but u hurt me most..u noe that ma?..

everytime u said that i hurt you..

u sure start a quarrel with me..

but when YOU hurt ME...

did i quarrel with you?..

did i said that i wan break up with u?...

i never.. cz i loved you..really very much..

n i don't know about you..

honey..

i really need u..

i gave you everthing..

everything i can..

and what did i asked from u?

~NOTHING~

i just wan u to love me..

to be with me..

cz i noe .. u belong with me..

only me .. honey..

~ONLY ME~

i dun mean to hurt you..

im really very sory..

i'll take everything as my fault..

its never your fault..

nvm.. i can bear it..

i do it for our love..

~YES FOR YOU N ME~

i love you winnie..

-xiao|^mumu-

love ONLY WINNIE`

MISSHHHH HERRR!

2009-12-30T03:52:00.000-08:00

miss you damn missssss u..

everynight.. keep on thinking of you..

hais.. cant even sleep..

cant even concentrate on doing anything...

i PROMISE you i wont break my PROMISES honey...

~~ PROMISE ~~

i love you very much!

my lao po~~

-xiao mumu HUNNIE____________~'

i LUVR winnie WIFEEE~~

ps..

2009-12-25T10:13:00.000-08:00

pai seh..

kinda bz...

later oni update blog..

wil inform in MSN if i updated =)

xiaomumu~

LUV WINNIE !

2009-12-18T12:35:00.000-08:00

COME BACK TO ME...

COME BACK HOME..

i love you winnie..

picha from mapleSEA...

2009-12-18T11:59:00.000-08:00

come home...please..

2009-12-18T09:33:00.001-08:00

im sory..

i shud not scold u lik dat...

i really am sory..

please forgive me..

i cant sleep at night...

i cant do anything..

my thoughts..

everything is about you...

n i keep staring at ur picture in my phone..

it really hurts me when u r nt around...

i love you bibi..

i really need u...

please..

don't go..please..

i realize that im an idiot...

i cant even make u happy...

always i make u sad...

dear im really sory...

i..cant live without u dear..

im really sory that time i scold u..

please..

baby..please come home...

u r my only happiness i have...

` xiaomumu...

x33 w|nNie..FOREVER!

Trust...

2009-12-11T12:39:00.000-08:00

dear... these are the pictures of my hand...u dun trust me that i love you forever? i prove it here... i used a table knife to do this... it already a few weeks..its stil brightly red.. its okay... i'll do anything for u...

Another From My Heart

2009-12-10T19:02:00.000-08:00

i love you very much, dear..i juz cant bare to leave you..honey , u r my everything..sweetheart..all this things..it is often heard..i used to say that to u always rite?..well..they are 100% true.. i cant even sleep at night...every second..im thinking of you...seriously...ALL THE TIME...3am of 4am...i don't know why..i wil b crying in bed...EVERYDAY hun..without you..i couldn't imagine how my future will b...i promise many things to you..n i dare to promise them because i TRUST you n our love very much...i TRUST n BELIEVE that 1 day..we can b together..

-out-

`xiao mumu~

i Lub Winnie Only`

waiting every single second..

2009-12-10T06:06:00.001-08:00

dear..

i made my choice..

i wil only love you...

dun worry..

i promise..

i wil never leave you dear...

i trust u..

i'll try my best not to make u sad..

i 'll do anything for u..

bibi...

u r my only one~

x3w|nnie

` xiao mumu~

lubb herr...

-out-

My 12 Promises to Winnie..

2009-12-10T06:04:00.000-08:00

12 Promises to Dear

(1) Love You Only With All My Heart

(2) Take Care & Dotes You Till the Day I am Gone

(3) Never Ever Flirt Around

(4) My Minds Is All About You

(5) Must Take Care of Myself When U Not Around

(6) Respect You No Matter What

(7) Don't Ever Quarrel with Others If Possible

(8) Sing Song Make U Sleep & Cover Blanket for U Every Night

(9) Learns to Be a More Good & Sweet Hubby

(10) Create a Happiness & Sweet Family with U & Our Baby

(11) Kiss U & Hug U Every Night When You Going Sleep

(12) Try to Give U Everyday is Our Anniversary

sobs!

2009-11-29T01:07:00.000-08:00

hais..

everyday oso sad..

daily routine..

sad sad sad oni..

very sad leh..

shes not at my side..

feel like...

she sooo far away...

hais..

hope we can meet 1 day..

i wan ask my dady to bring me go SG

n we can meet

have to suffer for now..

later on..

we sure can b happy..

love bibi!~~

xiao mumu~

x3 WinniE

-out-

my life...very complicated`

2009-11-19T10:42:00.000-08:00

everyday

at home..

sit infront computer

play maple..

lalala~~

jump here...

jump there..

haiyo!!..

stupid GM go n chg the EXP rate..

now play wat a..

sien laa...

= =...

i oni play maple for her~...

for my dear~`

hmm...

i can feel...

that 1 day..

we can b together..

n i noe..

we r meant to b together de...

we r fated to b together..

^3^

love you winnie ..

` xiao mumu

-out-

i Love YOU~ + I COULD WAIT FOREVER LYRICS~

2009-11-12T08:28:00.000-08:00

maplesotry...

has its benefits...

n also got its ''bad sight'' de...

lolx..

i play play play until i addicted...

duno hw say lehh...

o.O''

haiz..

but..

the benefit is...

i found my love there~...

my love~~..

winnie oo~~..

StarrySin3~~...

bt...

she's from SG...

n me MSIA...

...although we r separated...

bt we trust each other very muchz~

...

we even exchged our accounts~~

i oways train for her~
so that she could b the same lv as me =)

hope 1 day..

i can met her...

...

many things happened...

sumtimes felt very hurt...

sumtimes sad...

...

haiz...

it doesn't matter...

i will oways b waiting for her...

if it takes forever...

who noes? ...

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away

And I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
'Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever

When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I'll miss the most is waking up next you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay

And I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
'Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever

When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait, I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I've gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
Until that day there's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever

When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait, I can wait forever

I can wait forever, I can wait forever
I can wait forever, I can wait forever, I can wait forever

im SORY!...

2009-11-10T21:55:00.001-08:00

baby...

im sory...

i just feel like...

we are nt suppose to b together...

im so sory...

its ok..

i noe that u dun wan me oso de...

i suggest...

we forget each other ba...

...

FORGET ME!...

please...

FORGIVE ME!...

please...

i 'm sory...

xiao mumu

- out -

Complicated

2009-11-04T02:55:00.000-08:00

Uh huh
Life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is

Chill out, what you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if, you could only let it be
You will see

I like, you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're, talkin' to me one on one
But you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

You come over unannounced
Dressed up, like you're somethin' else
Where you are ain't where it's at you see
You're makin' me

Laugh out, when you strike a pose
Take off, all your preppy clothes
You know, you're not foolin' anyone
When you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
(No no no)
No no
(No no no)
No no
(No no no)
No no

Ooh, chill out, what you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
(Yea yea)
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

WATCH OUT!

2009-11-02T03:29:00.000-08:00

LJL!

YOU WATCH OUT!

U **** SUCKER..

JUZ WATCH OUT..

ur time will come...

DUN WORRY...

UR NAME? STANDS FOR?

NAHH!!

GIVE YOU AR!!!

LJL - Lan Jiao La!

LJL - Lu Jilat Lampa!

LJL - Lame Jerk La!

* please note that if you simply want to make decision who the FUCK is LJL...don't say me...

===> this is because I didn't pronounce WHO THE FUCK is LJL...and if you wan to KPKB wit me.. BRING IT ON!

ANTI - AKUA + ANTI - ''MU GOU'' = ANTI - ''GOU GOU''

why ''gou gou'' ?

because SHE and BOYS are no difference...

cz..

SHES A TOMBOY!!

i nvr say who is that SHE a...if u TERASA...ur problem liao...

xiao ` mumu~

- out -

...

2009-11-02T03:03:00.000-08:00

something is happening to me..
haiz..
i dont know wat is it...
=(
haiz...
i hope THAT PERSON doesn't leave me...
please...
my whole life depends on THAT PERSON...
...if THAT PERSON juz goes away...
..i will suffer for the rest of my life...
..i juz cant life without THAT PERSON...
cz...
THAT PERSON said sumting to me...
n that sentence still wonders in my mind...
n its hurting me LITTE BY LITTLE....=(

xiao mumu~

- out -

Forgotten

2009-11-01T01:37:00.000-07:00

Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Chorus:]
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea

[Chorus]

I know I wanna run away
I know I wanna run away
Run away
If only I could run away
If only I could run away
Run away
I told you what i wanted I
I told you what i wanted
What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won't be forgotten
Never Again

[Chorus (2x)]

Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah

HOW TO FORGET YOUR EX IN ONE DAY

2009-11-01T01:25:00.000-07:00

After breaking up, most people are having a hard time to forget about their ex, this is because in their mind they still processing thoughts about the ex relationship...

Just like a hot pot, it takes time to cool down so is their mind...yeah...

This thought process may continue as long as they allow it...

But...

the beauty of the mind...

is that it is not bias to any command...

It accepts anything we tell it to do...

We can use this to our advantage by telling it to stop thinking about our ex.

Its ourselves that forcing ourselves to think about them...

Ok...

Here is an example on how to do this...see n learn carefully if you reli need this...it works for me...

cool yourself down...

relax...

sit in ur room...make sure the enviroment is really quiet...

Imagine your mind to be like "tap water" and your thought process like the speed of water flow...

You can control any amount of water flowing by adjusting the water faucet...

whether you want to have a full blast or small drops..

it is up to you de....

den..

just like the water flow...

you have a full control of yourself...

No body..

I mean..

"NO BODY" will ever control your mind except you...

If someone tells you to do something, you have a full control doing it or not... Right?

Now can you allow yourself to imagine that tap water flowing at high speed, be your Ex Memories,

those bad memories,

painful experiences...

abusive relationship...

Now..
See water flowing...

the higher the speed...

the more pain you may have...

As you can see now that...

the more turbulent the water is...

the more thoughts your mind process...

For example you might feel lonely, depressed or frustrated.

Now you can control the flow of water by adjusting the faucet, you can adjust it until you see small drips. Everything will be calm and there will be no more turbulence.

As you remember the way you were tightening the faucet, your mind will be slowing its bad thought processing. By the time there was no water flow, the thought process in the mind about your ex will be gone.

Try to do this exercise every day by imagining the flow of water be your past drama. The more you reduce the water flow the more you reduce"your ex"memories in your mind.

If you do this several times a day you might forget your ex in 24hrs.

Tested by,

` xiao mumu~

- end -

TRUE feeling

2009-10-31T00:57:00.001-07:00

i now feel like..

angry...

and..

sad..

and..

pissed off..

haiz..

cant believe she do like this to me...

she the 1st gurl to do that to me..

its ok..

let her b..

she wil suffer..

TEAR DROPS ON MY GUITAR

2009-10-31T00:35:00.000-07:00

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

Diary of jane..

2009-10-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.

i HATE you..

2009-10-30T07:27:00.000-07:00

walao..

haiz..

my hp kena rampas..

den i din contact with u..

den..

u go find other liao..

suan liao lo..

haiz..

i dun care u wan read my blog or not..

haiz..

i reli very du lan..

LAN JIAO!!

I HATE YOU!!

JIBAI!!

HATE ME IF YOU WANT!!

o0o !!

I DON'T WAN A FUCKIN GF ANYMORE!!

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