TRUE feeling

i now feel like..

angry...

and..

sad..

and..

pissed off..

haiz..

cant believe she do like this to me...

she the 1st gurl to do that to me..

its ok..

let her b..

she wil suffer..

TEAR DROPS ON MY GUITAR

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

Diary of jane..

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.

i HATE you..

walao..

haiz..

my hp kena rampas..

den i din contact with u..

den..

u go find other liao..

suan liao lo..

haiz..

i dun care u wan read my blog or not..

haiz..

i reli very du lan..

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

LAN JIAO!!

I HATE YOU!!

JIBAI!!

JIBAI!!

JIBAI!!

JIBAI!!

JIBAI!!

JIBAI!!

HATE ME IF YOU WANT!!

o0o !!

o0o !!

o0o !!

o0o !!

o0o !!

o0o !!

o0o !!

I DON'T WAN A FUCKIN GF ANYMORE!!

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HATE YOU 4EVER!!

EEEEEEEEEEE

ASS SO BIG

PETER BIRTHDAY

tdy..

very weird...

1st..

2am morning...

suddenly no electricty...

i sleeping lehh...

suddenly i wake up..

SO HOT!!!

i tot i blind oredi...

i open my eyes...

cant see anything...

all DARK DARK!!!

den i panic oredi...

i tot i blind...

so i slap myself...

so PAIN...

o.O''

den i realise that ther is no electric o.O''

lols...

i start to feel that today wil b the most UNLUCKIEST day in my life...

lols...

i duno wan do wat...

so i sleep back...

5.30am

i wake up..

my mum woke me up..

=) keke...

den got electric le...

my aircon running...

keke..

den i felt very weird...

o.O''

watever la...

den i felt very scare to go to school...

haiz...

scare i SUEY again...

den...

wat to do..

my mum force me to go ..

ok lo..

LALALA~~

at school...

i simply simply go kacau ppl...

morning morning...

go inside my didi class...

they all ROGOL me...

1st...

deric unfasten my shirt button...

my shirt terus TANGGAL...

OMG... that terence...so PERVERT...

lols..

very XIASUEH...

aiyo...

wat to do..

den..

deric class no teacher..

so he n terence lepak lepak wit us...form 3 de...

lols..

den..they rogol me again...

until MR.HAMIDON saw us..

LOL... he din say anything...

my pants very easy buka de...

ISHH...

10.43am

at ICTL 2

robotic club...

i tot all go ther play dotA..

lols..

but go ther play robot..

WAKAKAKA!!

the teacher ask me to modify a robot...

den...

i duno wat am i doing..

so i simply do..

=D

my teammates all useless de...all playing game==

lols..

ok

presentation time...

when reach my turn...

all ppl laugh..

cz i duno wat i do to my robot...

my robot do BREAKDANCE lehh!!!

all robots muz folo the black line de...

but mine...juz go straight...

ALL PPL LAUGH!!

wakakakaka...den when reverse liao...my robot spin spin...

SPIN SPIN until siao...

all ppl laugh...

ISHH..>.<''

2.48pm

reach home le...

deric didi said wan come my house study..

=D hehe..

waited him til 3.19pm lo..

den he came..

HE SO CUTE!!~~ =D

hehe..

we study geografi together..

we study study...

we.. ehem ehem...

EHEM!...

readers...

wat r u thinking of that EHEM>?

dun think wrong horr..

=) he is my didi~

i very luv him~

aiyah...

wat couple do when they get together?

o.O''

but me n him not couple HORR!!

hehe..

5.47pm

deric didi go home le..

so sad...

gv him thousands of hugs and kisses~ =D MUUUAARRRHHHSSZZ~~

den..i go bath...

bath bath..

wan go BP MALL to celebrate peter's birthday...

LOL..

i reach ther 7.03pm...

no ppl ther...

benjamin not yet come..

peter not yet come...

lau not yet come..

benjamin said that he is coming oredi...

so i waited for him...

until my LEG BREAK A!!!

lols...

nvm ==

readers...

see...

i din hv my lunch lehh...

very very busy...

so i ate at BP MALL with my frens...

ate KFC~~ =D eat like pig...

asked for extra cheeeeeeesseeee~~~~ =DDDD

eat reli like pig...

kakakakakakakakakak....

total cost...rm43.65...keke...=D

den..we go watch movie...

HAHAHAHAH!!!

pandarum...

keke...

at 1st very scare...

but we oways make jokes...

til we laugh laugh...

we supposed to b scared...

cz horror movie..

but we laughing...

im sure other ppl sure think us crazy 1...

haha..

this movie horr...

like...

suddenly suddenly de...

hahahaha

=D..

11.33pm

now at home lo..

play facebook n blogging...

duno i can sleep or not...

hahahahah... =D

` xiao mumu~

-out-

I LOVE BROTHER~

i love didi~~~

i love deric~~

i love tan ~~

i love tan zhi qian~~

i love baby~~

i love him~~

i love deric didi~~

i love ah di~~

love him very much much much~~ =)

PAPARAZZI

We are the crowd
We're cuh-coming out
Got my flash on it's true
Need that picture of you
It's so magical
We'd be so fantastic, oh

Leather and jeans
your watch glamorous
Not sure what it means
But this photo of us
It don't have a price
Ready for those flashing lights
'Cause you know that baby I-

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your-
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi

I'll be your girl backstage at your show
Velvet ropes and guitars
Yeah cause you know I'm starting between the sets
Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and return
My lashes are dry- But the teardrops I cry
It don't have a price
Loving you is Cherry Pie
'Cause you know that baby I-

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Real good, We're dancing in the studio
Stop-stopped, That shit on the radio
Don't stop, for anyone
We'll Blast it but we'll still have fun

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi


Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Love...?

haiz..

everyday like this..

i reli feel like wanna change..

but..

theres sumting...

ya..

i noe..

its love...

LOVE made me like this...

since i was form 1...

i oredi like dis...

sometimes i dun understand the meaning of it..

but..

sumtimes im pretty clear about it..

why?

...

i just cant understand...

haiz...

feel like..

wanna give up everything...

what i think aboout love is..

LOVE doesn't matter what age u are...

LOVE doesn't need other ppl's help..

LOVE come by its own...

its juz...natural feeling...

now i get it...

its too personal...

i took LOVE too deep...

n it made me like this...

i guess...

this isn't the life that i suppose to life right now...

how could it possibly be?

...

im such a happy happy boy...

suddenly..

LOVE turn me like this...

from now on...

im gonna watch my steps..

im not gonna fall into anyone's trick...

im clear...

time to change =D

` xiao mumu~

-out-

BACK BACK!! COME BACK!!

come back...come back...
my handphone..
sobs...

friday..
i went to school
so SUEHHHHHH!!!
WAKAOO!!!..
when perhimpunan...
MY HAIR KENA CUT BY F*CKING MR.SARJIT!!!!!!!
sobs...
miss my hair...
now i think my hair oredi bcm dust... o.O''
den...
go school duno wan to do wat...
so...i hang out at form 1 BLOK ther... o.O''
lols...
with this XIASUEH GUY name YONG ZHI YUAN!..
==
keke... we sit sit there...toking toking abt ''SOMETHING'' o.. =D
something laa...
y u wan kepo kepo?
ishh..
see laa..
==
hmm..
we toking abt tuitions lo...
den suddenly this YONG pull the topic to GIRLS...
actually..HE IS A PERVERT.. o.O''
unlike ME.. so CLEAN!~ =D**

ish ish...
den...
suddenly my hp in my pocket vibrate..
OMG!..
i TER-kejut..
o.O''
i looked around..
n her was no1..
no teacher...
no big mouth ppls...
o.O''
the call is from my MUM!!
lols...

i answer the call..
''ARLLOO~ * ?
ahh? wat wat? ''
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
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bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla

lalalalalal~~~
lalalala~~
lalalaal~~
lalalala~~
lalalala~~~

ish..
den..
i close my hp..
z610i lehh...
flip flip o~..
den i take my hp...
see see my face through the reflection...
*lookin gud* (as oways) * muz self-esteem de maahh.. =D o.O''

haiyo...
me tok tok wit my mum lo..
she ask me wat time go back..
is my fren following?
am i stayin' back?
wat am i doing?
WTFF??


zzz..
SOME BIG MOUTH ASSHOLER saw me using the phone..
that dude with his pant up high his belly...
named SHIDAN BIN RAMLI saw me..
GRRRRR..from his class...ish ish..
tats y la..
see...
i lost my specs...
i cant see that FAT ASS guy watching over me..
==

wat to do...
he said he was only doing his FREAKIN' duty..
so..
he called MR.FUCKING SARJIT...
n told him everything
den..
sarjit went hunting 4 me..
==
LOL...
reli funny sehh..

==
den..
i called my mum to come to school...
even though i brrrriiinnngggg my mum together to meet him..
he said,
i oni can get back my hp when the school close...
OMG?
lol..
i reli upset lo..
ish ish ish..



den..
today..

26 OCTOBER..

i go talk to the principal...
b4 that..
i tok so big..
i said that i wan to complain abt sarjit to her..
i said it to my frens..
keke..
i said to them that i wan to make a fight up there...
i wan to kick his ass..
i wan to hit HAJAH NOORSIAH...

BUT

when i go up the room...

wakao...

my legs...

terus becm like jelly a..

LOL...

so nervous...

AND...

1 thing came in to my mind when i step into pricipal's room

WE ARE SUFFERING...WEATHER SO HOT...THIS FUCKING PENGETUA JUZ HAVE TO SIT THERE...WITH THE AIRCON SWITCH ON..I MEAN.. 2 AIRCONS... WOW!! JUZ SIGNING PAPERS... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

she said mayb this friday i can get back my handphone...

its only a MAYBE~

lol..

`xiao mumu~

-out-

pmr OVER, relationship OVER, but sumting HAVEN OVER !!!

I'd give it all
I'd give for us
I'd give my heart
I'd give my love
Give anything !!
but
I won't give up~
'Cause you know,
you know i love you...












































but...do you??

I DON'T LOVE SHIRLY CHOON ANYMORE!

HOW COULD YOU??

YOU HOPELESS BITCH!
I HOPE U SUFFER BURN IN HELL FOR THIS SHIT..
U MOTHA FUCKA!
O.o''

ishh ishh...
coolin myself down down down...
shirly...
left me..
wit a SUCKIN reason...
WTF...IM TOO BORED??
come on la..
LOVE doesn't care about that...
U SUCKA!
lol..u think u alone sad sad ?
u think i nt bored la?
u think u alone bored a?
harrrrr?? PUSSYHOLE??? HARR??
i'll tell u something...
i told u that i hope that u will get a gud n better bf than me nex time
rite?

well..i was faking it..YEAHH!!
i hope u SUCK n FALL !!
YEaHH!!YOU SUCK!! no boys gonna woo u...
its bcz of ur FEELINGS TOWARDS LOVE!!!!
don't you think that LOVE is all about being HAPPY.. ok??

lols...GO AHEAD!
i DON'T NEED DICKHEAD LIKE YOU , BITCH!!
SHIRLY CHOON SI LIN!
IF YOURE READING THIS..
FEEL IT SUCKKA!!
U DESERVE THIS!!
U SUCK! U FUCK! U ASSHOLER!! U COCKSUCKA!
lol..i over le...==
ishhsiihhh...
I DON'T CARE WHAT OR HOW YOU FEEL!!
WHO GIVES A DAMN ABOUT HOW OR WHAT U FEEL!!!
U ONLY CARED ABOUT BEING HAPPY ALL THE TIME!!
go fuck ur mom la!

PMR OVER LEHH~~ o.O''

pmr over oooooo~~

ish ish...

but..

stil no freedom...

cz..MY MODEM SUCKS!!!!!!!

sobs..

dun ever buy PRO-LINK...

reli...there nothing PRO about that modem...

it sucks...

LOL...

tdy went square 1 with rhina n black man...

haha...

1st we go buy ticket for a STUPID MOVIE!..

wasted rm9 for that movie...

the movie called Surrogates or wat nonsense a...

30min , me n my frens felt bored n started walkin away...

when watching movie with them...

beside gt a couple lo...very sweet de...

lolX! me suddenly thought of her...

my shirly~~~...

my dear dear~~~...

my love ~~~...

my sweet heart~~..

er... i back to topic le...

haiz...felt jealous lo...haha...

after movie...we went old taste(or old town[i dunoo laa..]) ther eat eat n drink drink...

haha...me eat hokkien mee~~ yummy~~

reach home le...

so bore...

duno wan to do wat...

play computer...

haiz..

oways DC when i play DOTA...

PRO-LINK YOU SUCKSS!!

I Realize..

Take time to realize
That your warmth is crashing down on in
Take time to realize that I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now

Take time to realize, oh, oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize, this all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other

But, it's not all the same, no, it's never the same
If you don't feel it to, if you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder

Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized
Ooh, ooh

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now, yeah
Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh

YAY~

...

i broke up with J...

i dun care whether u accept or don't...

i cant b with you anymore..

i cant lose my true love...

my shirly...

she gave me another chance...

i promise i wil love her properly this time...

never i will disappoint her...

**my promises to her**

- Love you always..

- I wont give up loving you..

- I will never leave you..

- I wont betray you..

- I will always be happy..

LOVE SHIRLY ~

it doesn't matter..

where u are...

although u r far away from me...

our love is always together...

I LOVE YOU..

- xiao ` mumu -

Sorry..

I LOST MY TRUE LOVE...

ITS NEVER TO BE BACK ANYMORE...

HOPE YOU DON'T GO..

PLEASE..

Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry, I'm bad, I'm sorry, I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

This time I think, I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry, I'm bad, I'm sorry, I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah, sorry

I'm sorry, I'm bad, I'm sorry, I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry

NEW CARE (II) ...I SO MEAN...

..it hurts...

when someone who you truely loved...

leaves u...

u will feel the fire...

burning in ur heart...

it hurts...

n leaves a GREAT scar in your heart....

I FEEL SO BAD....

why...

....

i betrayed SHIRLY....

why am I like THIS?

..i SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

....

shirly...i noe...

we loved each other....

very much....

...

n now...

u wont talk to me anymore....

cz i hurt u...

HURT you too much....

im HEARTLESS leh....TT i reli feel bad....

i recently back with my J...

and i duno why...

why i choose J....

i HATED HER SOOOOOOOO MUCH...

...WHY?...

i loved shily...very much...

but y....

...

im so GREEDY....

NOW..

The TruTh is ....

J...

i aint happy being with you...

...u dont seem to b like b4...

i think u r trying to destroy my life...

aren't u?

...ITS MY FAULT...

now...im so DARN confused...i left my true love...

n go 4 the person that i hate...don't know why...

suddenly my feeling changed...

...ITS SO DARN HURTING ME!!...

SERVES ME RIGHT...

IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!

I'M FLIRTIN' AROUND!!!

...BEWARE OF ME...

...I CANT TRUST MYSELF EITHER...

I SUCK...

-xiao ` mumu-

NEW CARE...

since that day...

i was so sad...

and...

the next day...

i stil got contact wit my ex...

yeah...

my sweet ex~^^

she had been with me since J left me...

haiz...

i sms with her...

i told her that i was very lonely...

n very sad...

she ask me not to b sad...

ok...

den i ask her...

how can i dun b sad...

all ppl dun wan me oredi...

sobs...

she replied....

.......u stil have me har....

...den i reply...

but...we not lovers le...how come...

den she said...

b lovers lo...

...o.O'' this is my current relationship...*reader shud noe what my relationship now...

everyday was so lonely...

everyday i so lonely...

haiz...

i don't wan to talk to J already...

because...

she hurt me tooo much already...

i ask her to think about our relationship..

she said she cant think of it...

ok..nvm...i told her to think abt it...

i gave her til after her exam...

when her exam over..

i din get any answer from her...

i ask her..

u think liao ma???

she said...

think what?

WAKAO...

WTF LAA..

lol...

i sien dao...

i very du lan her loooo...

hAIz..

hope can kill her...

with my bare hand...

WITHOUT WEARING ANY PROTECTION...

GGREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

==haiz...

Eu Te AmO~ (I LOVE YOU) PART II

haizs...

i duno what reli happen that time...

everything was a blur...

wtf la...

i took that love so seriously...

she took me as her best fren...

i CANT TRUST HER ANYMORE!!

but nvm...

its ok..

i 4giv her...

...

suddenly my ex...

she wans together wit me...

by that time...

i thought that J don't wans me anymore...

n my ex will take gud care of me...

cz i think that she realise that love is important n its not a playing matter...

so i accepted her...

n so i also accepted J...

I SOOOOO STUPID AND GREEDY!!!

WTF LAA...

haiz...

den...

2 days pass...

haiz...

i shud write this slower...

hmm...

ok...

i got 2 gf in 1 time now...

aiyah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

easy laa....

erm...

okayy...

ermm...

i broke up with my ex AGAIN...

to be with J...

den...

when i broke up with my ex...

J also breaks up with me...

WOW!!~~...

jackpot!!!!

i lost them !!~~~

HOW STUPID AM I!!!!!!!!!!!
SERVES ME RIGHT!!!

IM A DUMBASS!!!

....

lifes so...haiz...

its all my fault...

im so stupid...

...........

Eu Te AmO~ (I LOVE YOU)

lols... shes form 1 n me is form 3~

haixx...shes from batu pahat and me also from batu pahat...

haixx~....NOTHING WRONG ISN'T IT?

we don't know each other yet...

that day...28AUGUST2009~

INSTALLATION OF HSBP AND TIGS at Hai Huang Restaurant....

i was the MC(master of ceremony)

lols... i was very nervous...i was walking here n there... haha...

like..my heart...was gonna burst by then...

lolss...

suddenly i saw my mei mei(SECRET) with her frens...

they saw me...n we had an eye contact for awhile...haha...

i was 'panik-ing' around that time...so i decided to ignore them... haha

den...the installation was about to start...that moment...

my hand like ice HAR!!

den...the install start with our interact wedding lorr...

that is me n wen qing(my MC partner) hold hand (like LIVE wedding) walking into the hall

lols...all ppl went crazy...especially my didi~!!!!! he tease me!!!!!!!!! GRRRREEE...

the installation was a sucess...hehehe...

so happy that night...

took pictures with my frens...

den GOT A GIRL HORR...

WITH HER FRENS HORR..

disturb me lehh....

her frens said that im her fren(that girl) bf...

== i ignore laa..none of my buisness oso...

den horr...

when i reach home, i go sleep lorr...

the next week i think...i kinda 4get the date...

my mei mei with her fren was chatting on msn...

when i on9...they invited me into their conversation...

lols...

they said that a girl admires me...

in my thought...''who again''' oh no...

her name is...J..

mei mei oso talked about J until made me so interested in J

her fren was helping his gf too..==

haiyo...

den this J horr...

can see so obvious lehh...

from DIGI chg to MAXIS...

i think horr...mayb she wans to sms wit me more loo...(FROM MY OPINION LA)

den..we start sms-ing lo...

den i 4get what what happen...

den we suddenly bcome couple..

==

haha...

so..weird...

haiz..

love so blind...

im such a flirt...

haiz...

we so happy lorr...

but...im sad about 1 thing..

her mum is very strict...

n she don't let J to go out with frens...

only for badminton or swimming...

lol...i cant go for badminton or swimming!~~

i will b drowning in the water..~ bOGOSKFOSGKDGLD~~~!!==

every night...we used to call each other...

talk about many things...

haiz...i reli hope that we can b together...LOL...everybody hopes that..

1 day...

she said to me...

shes going to PULAU TIOMAN for her holidays..

for 1 weekss....

i so sad lorr...cant sms...cant call...so miss her...

everyday...was like ...

haiz..

i was very worried too...

worried that she might 4get abt me...

and...

aiyo...bla bla bla bla la...

n that day...

she reli hurt me heart...

.....................................................................................

she got a gf....

haiz.....

this is a very big question mark on my head...

see harr...

i asked her...

do u love me more or love her gf more...

she said that she loves her gf more...WTF!!

den..i ask her what about me??

she said im second...

okay...its ok...

im second...

n her gf is 1st...

i get angry...

haiz...

i loved her so much...

so DAMN much!!!

of coz...she wont know how much i loved her...

haiz..

ok..then i told her to go with her gf laa...

dun come to me anymore...

go with ur gf!!

im not important to u anymore what!!~

she said to me...

do u know what gf means?

means very best fren...

WTFF!! she love her ''best fren'' more that me??

so im just her BEST FRENS??

what??? 2nd BEST FREN??

FUCK YOU LA!

wtf...