2nd SweetHeart...

**~after 12november2008~**

haiih...everyday sad sad~~~ then, everyday my friends are here to cheer me up...lucky i have them...

day by day...my feeling towards her is fading... haha..~~~ lets not talk about that anymore~~~



now~
its me~~


now im form 3~~

studying in HSBP~~


but...i stil have my problems in my love life...well...i have my little brother wit me all the time~~
















his name is deric~~ my lil brother~ ^^ cute eh? aiya...not cute den no nid see la...4 me...he is my cutest lil brother i have(well,i only have him) haha..
although he is also in-love with someone special...he is not like me...i used to b kinda serious in my love relationships...but..hes like...''dun care'' haha...mayb because he doesn't take it seriously or maybe its his nature...

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haih...


**~25August2009~**

i felt happy for a few months ONLY...but...my love sickness struck my heart again...this time...it really made me very disappoint...it was JUST a question...

if i said that i love you...what will you say?

and she said : do u reli love me? qi shi i also got feeling toward you...

i realise that i am gonna be in a relationship soon enough...but...i couldn't resist either...i wanted a girl so much...i needed some1 that can be by my side everytime...so...i replied...

yes..i love you too...

shes stil in form 1...and shes from selangor...but...i don't want to hurt a smal girl's heart...so..i accepted her...it was kinda silly...because...all of my EX are not from my hometown...how weird...mayb its because my reputation here is already shattered with all the nonsense storys that was made by my most hated gang(cant say who)...

1st day...

i loved her so much...so..we start to tell everything about ourselves....from deep deep core of my heart...and hers too...we understanded each other easily...but...i always think that im making a mistake...i just DON't know what is it...it is keep on bugging me...all the time i sms with her...that thing is always on my mind...

'' is she really in my heart??...is she gonna do the same thing just like my EX? ...''

she promised to me...just like my ex...she wouldn't leave me...and she would love me forever n ever...it was really very complicating...the way she told me that...i felt very confident...that shes not gonna leave me...just like ~always hold on to my hand...wont let it go...

2nd day...

next day i woke up really very early...and i left some messages to her before i go to school...that day...it was kinda weird...everything...was looking like...abnormal...i saw some cats chasing dogs on the roadside...as i know, do dogs chased by cats?? then, my things went missing...my stuffs...n my modem went CRAZY...everything was...unknown...

at night...i felt like somethings wrong...but...she was okay...that day...my mum was kinda crazy too...she always hated me...but that day...she showed me some WEIRD LOVE...i end up in my room...spending my time with my phone ,front of my face...smsing with her...i felt quiet sad...i don't know what was the reason...suddenly, i felt down...just like THAT~...but...my dear...she was happy...i can say that she a very happy girl...never run sad...then...i dont know what came on to my mind...and i kept on asking weird questions to her...errmm..i couldn't remember what question i ask...im sory...suddenly, she stop replying my message for a few minutes...i m sooooo stupid that i asked something....something stupid that i couldn't even remember it myself...i think it really made her HATE me...i can't remember what was it...HAIZ!...she decided to break up with me...


well...if we are together too, we would break also someday...its just...i just dont understand...why...they promised me...they wouldn't leave me...they will love me 4ever...but...all they give me is...a BUNCH of SHIT?? dear...im sory if u r reading this...please forgive me...but...this now..i telling everything thats in my heart...i dont give a damn about what other people says about our love...as long as...we love each other...let them say...its their buisness...its ok...maybe your're just stil small...

2 DAYS

...not even a week...not even 48 hours...not even 2 days actually...we broke up...just like that...why? is it because...i dont have enough charisma? haa?... since that day...i started to hate myself very much...very very much...i don't know why...everyday i go school....i used to be happy...n now im sad...always sad...n hurt all the time...even when my frens are around me, making joke...im aint laughing...its ok...the feeling will fade soon...time will help...right? OH TIME...YOU DO HELP ME LAST TIME RIGHT?...please...