YOU LIE TO ME..

YERRRRRR!

WHY you do this to me..

WHY WHY WHY ?!?!

this time i ain't gonna forgive you..

NEVER..

that's it..

its over..

im sory ..

directed again..?

directed again..?

hope..

.i hope that you were with me..

be by my side..

..6months liao..

soon...

its gonna be 7 months..

how long shud i wait more..

..i don;t know...

sometimes ..

i wan to sms with you also i cant..

you wont reply me..

...things get really complicated sometime..

theres no1 to cheer me up..

and i get very moody sometimes..

but today..

april 08..

sum1 did..

...

that person..

has been asking me to forgive

for a very long time ..

till now..

ok ba..

hope that person is trustable.

:(

nowdays..

cant even sleep..

kept on thinking of that thing...

stress lerhh..

school got problem...

personal got problem...

family got problem..

time to study also cant...

... :( even im having my own problem with some of my frens..

i expect a CHANGE...

PLEASE...

Xiao mumu..` `

world isn't life last time..agree?

OH NO .NOT AGAIN -.-

[ are you directed from my 2nd blog? :O ]

if u are.. welcome to my 1st blog..:)

1st ,

i would like to say sorry to everyone..

hais ..

:(

im really sory..

for what i've done to u all...

SORRIIIIEE!!

and for him...

i don't want you in my life anymore..

please. dun keep on sms/calling me ..

and she..

im sory to disturb you..

..i really wished that..

that..

...sigh..

forget about it..

its imposibble anyway..

today , morning..

same routine again..

morning morning..

go buy mee siam + pok pok + taukie

eat eat eat..

reach schhooolll...

go there..

1st subject BM oredi..

din do homework..

forget le -.- kena marah..

till very ad..

sigh..

:(

*skips to evening tuition*

evening..

mdm.teng..

eat fishball mee..

not enough..

wanted to buy more..

but , no enough money..

sigh..

went upstairs..

do homework..

till hand wan breeakkkk...

den,,

teacher came in..

study study study ..

do karangan..

do until i m the last 1 to finish..

lol....

all ppl do so fast..

i do 1page = 1 paragraph lerhh!

summore my handwriting so small...

-.-'' frens all nvr wait for me de :O

hais ..

sad sad sad ...

*tonight tuition [ad.maths] *

i didn't do the homework again..

-.-'' everytime also din do.

why ? ? ? ? ?

because i cant !!

...i really cant..

those things..

are really disturbing..

am i suffering from emotional disturbance...?

sigh..

+ today ad.maths tuition..

dont even know what the teacher teaching...

quadratic function = GG.com -.-''

now at home le...

heard a bad news..

seriously bad..

that now only i know..

heart keep on feeling down..

* `mumu ______abnormal me.. ;O

T^T

4time..

HEARTBROKEN !

full of dissapointment..

hais..

sad lerhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i cant forget it ..

the thing is in my mind all the time..

:( wish some frens were here to cheer me up.. :(

Time Passes as i HURT MORE everyday...

me ,

muruga .

i've been waiting for someone ..

for almost 6months ..

6months..

guys ..

who ever read this blog..

you all may think that i m a playful boy..

but seriously.. im not playful in love..

i don;t know why..

i just don;t understand .

its just unfair..

6months le ..

every single day..

not even 1 day i miss..

to cry..

to hurt..

to scream..

to miss..

you..

i wanted to give up..

but i cant ..

my feelings towards u..

its really too much..

..6months .. i trusted that true love, needs great sacrifice..

i sacrifice many of my time..

for u..

and i wanted you to be always be happy..

i know..

readers , u all think me now is very lame de .

its ok . think la wat u wan think abt me . i dun care..

i always wanted her to be happy ..

not to be sad or hurt.

but .

she said . she hates me ..

and , im making her life..

really really really miserable..

means : im disturbing her ..

means : im making her sad ..

means : im really DUMB..

and you guys know why i decided to suicide..?

its about two things .

one is my feelings towards my dad( which is now ok already =] , love you daddy ^^)

and another one ..

my feelings towards you..

5th month..

i really cant take it ..

its been hurting me ..

really really very much..

and

could say that i skipped my breakfast , lunch , dinner for 2 daYS..

yea.. 2 daYs nvr eat anything ..

and my mum really was worried..

she scolded me . really badly .

saying me mad and all those stuffs.

i wasn't listenning .. cz i cant even understand wat was she talking ..

all i had in my heart was YOU...

YOU were the only light in my heart..

but .. i know.. for YOU , im the only darkness in YOUr heart..

:(

and i decided to end my life .

( call me stupid if u wan to )

i really cant take it anymore..

those 5months full of torture..

my heart isn't a TOY you know..?

i felt that no1 cared about me ..

i felt that no1 wans me anymore..

my mum : was like lost hope on me ..

my frens : only Rhinevir were by my side . giving support to me .

5months...

and that perfect timing

i failed the 2nd attempt for my suicidal..

..something stopped me . i don't know what it was..

but hey..

when im out from me home ,

i kept thinking of YOU..

yes...

ONLY YOU..

i was hungry but the hunger went away when YOU were in my mind..

wonder wats my 1st attempt ?

- goes lik dis .

mum went buy breakfast .

cars passingby many many on road .

lol .

sumting came into my mind ,

opened the car door ,

ran towards the middle of the road .

a car almost bang me

but didn;t .

>< ''

..i'd do anything for YOU..

anything ..

BUT..please dun ask me to leave YOU..

..i cant..even..

let..

go.. of u..in my mind..

for atleast 18seconds(tested and proven O.o'')..

sigh .

6th month..

im still waiting ..

hoping u to b with me .. :(

im sory if i ever made you sad..

im really sory if i made you angry..

please forgive me . i beg you..

.. please.. its really deep..

for me ..

even a small mistake..

i cant take it ..

... im sory ..

I L O V E Y O U ` :/

xiao` mumu~

U P D A T E S .

heartbroken .
6pm will update blog .

xiao|mumu

IM ADDICTED TO YOu.......

How long will I be waiting?

Until the end of time..

I don't know why I'm still waiting..

I can't make you mine..

:(